i'm looking forward to being this kind of woman. but only for a summer. :)
i'm looking forward to the sunsets.
i'm looking forward to this being my backyard.
there are many other things i'm excited about. a new place. new people. the east coast..which..lets face it..is a new culture. new job. new new new. and i'm learning to like change. and i'm learning to let go of the things i have grown so accustomed to.
yesterday as i packed up my santa cruz life and said the last tearful goodbyes i felt a type of anxiety i haven't felt in a long time. i couldn't string words together properly. i couldn't stop shaking. a friend told me that you can tell yourself over and over that you're ok and that the transition isn't affecting you that much, but the truth is that your body knows when you are in a state of change. and the physical effects of that anxiety sometimes cannot be ignored. and i've been thinking about how wonderful it would be to just have one week to tie up loose ends and rest and spend time with the people i love in that place. but would i really be ready to go then? i don't think we're ever fully ready to make a transition. because transitions mean you're leaving something or someone behind.
i miss them all already.
i'm sure i'll blog later about the wonderful memories of santa cruz, but for now my mind is on what is ahead of me. 3 teammates waiting for someone to guide them through this crazy summer, an empty church waiting to be filled up with laughter and life and love and conversation and brokenness and growth, 9 weeks of different churches coming to mingo county to serve and be served by my team, there are prayers to be prayed, stories to be heard and stories to tell. the list goes on and on. and even though i have an idea of what my summer might look like...i have no idea at all.
get excited. west virginia stories to come.
sarah,good first thoughts about your new life in good ol' W.a. it is so ironic that you will be working only about an hour from where i spent the first 17 years of my life. funny huh? what a life and i'm glad i can go together through life with you somewhat. i'll never know what it exactly is like to be you and see and live life through your eyes and ears and nose and toes and all that stuff, but at least i can read your stuff and then when we are together again you can tell me all about it, and of course your wonderful pictures. well, gotta go and you go girl. i love you as much as there is shale in W.VA. the dad
ReplyDeletei love i love it!!!! i can't wait to hear mingo county stories!!!
ReplyDeleteI could write a book about the joy of watching our Sarah girl transition through life...from cozy Little House on the Proctor..to DeLong Elementary..to Hunt Middle School..to a year being homeschooled by 'the mom'..back to Hunt and then onto Wilson High...the transition of high school to college was the one most difficult for me...letting go of this beautiful young woman I had had the privilege of watching grow up...it continues to be a privilege to sit back and watch her bloom and grow wherever the Lord calls her...fly my beautiful woman child..you're always tucked into the corners of my heart...forever loved and prayed for...The Mom
ReplyDeleteI love this. I love your journey. I love you.
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